swarming with magical robots!

Im done, im out

2006-08-15T05:39:24Z

Things that don't agree with my stomach:

Cheese
Strip clubs

DIY to me...

2006-04-30T16:48:07Z

...means that you own your own equipment, or at least make plans with someone else to borrow theirs prior to a show. How can you do things yourself when you don't even have the bare necessities.

It's not punk-rock to show up to shows without your own equipment. It's also not punk rock to ask someone if you can borrow theirs at the show because they have nicer stuff. It's not punk rock to take 25 minutes to set up, punk was suppose to be fast i thought.

Feel free to correct me if i am wrong but, i feel that everyone should agree with this.

It turns to ashes in your mouth

2006-04-20T05:33:45Z

Tonight at the gym i saw two fat people drinking soda while working out.

Be good to your records.

2006-04-19T03:43:00Z

Today at work this nice old woman came in with a basket. In the basket there where a bunch of really old 45's, with no artwork or sleeves, but they where all good artists. I had to explain to her that we did not sell them and i was sorry that i couldn't help her. She told me that was she still loved all the songs and showed me some of the records. Then she kind of got a sad look on her face and told me that she couldn't take care of them anymore because she had to go away. This made me really sad because i think she was taking about dying. I could be wrong and maybe she is just moving, that would be a happier ending to this story, but i don't think thats what meant. Normally i wouldn't care about this at all but for some reason it made me really sad.

Get stoked

2005-12-21T16:48:43Z

best of the year:
1. party: Denice's i got kicked out
2. show: Danzig/Crowbar/George Jones/Cage & Tame one (not all the same show, but that would have ruled)
3. cd: Planes Mistaken For Stars - Up in them guts
4. movie: Me and You and Everyone We Know , i don't know if it came out this year but i just saw it
5. song: I listen/rap/quote the leak bros. constantly so Im gonna go with that even though it came out last year
6. experience: All the touring Ruiner did, Knocking someone out, Peeing in someone's lemonade
7. purchase: ipod/Mac min
8. book: Chuck Palahniuk - Haunted / Bret Easton Ellis - Lunar Park
9. month: June i was on tour the whole month hanging out with Day Of The Dead and John Frank
10. day: July 10th, March 1st - I got to see Danzig play Misfits songs with Doyle and than me nicole and shannon thought it was necessary to drive to NY @ 3am to see J.Lo on the Today Show and Fat Joe did a surprise performance and I made it back just in time for work

worst of the year:
1. party: Shannon's birthday i was attacked with a crab mallet.
2. show: Cleveland day of the Ruiner/Dead Hearts tour
3. cd: Party Monster soundtrack
4. movie: Party monster
5. song: Anything from party monster
6. experience: Party monster, getting stitches is my face on easter morning, last week when i was sick, Nicole Wallace
7. purchase: A giant plaster last supper i bought in Mexico, it seemed like a good idea at the time but it got broke in the van and more when i got home and then Christen stepped on it in the dark one night and killed it. Even though the guy wanted $45 for it Steve and i got him to sell it to me for $15, John video taped the whole thing and as soon as i got it in the van my first words were "What the fuck am i going to do with this?" The whole thing was pretty funny
8. book: Why would i waste my time on a bad book
9. month: The last Three weeks of January
10. Day: That day Rob made me go to sonar with him

hopes for 2006:
1. predict something that you think will happen in 2006?: I will spend way too much money on records and cds
2. what do you hope changes about your country?: FREE HEALTH CARE!!!!!
3. what do you hope for yourself?: I hope i dont get fat
4. what do you hope for your family?: That my mom gets fixed
5. what do you hope for your best friend(s)?: That they dont start to suck

during 2005:
1. where were you when it began?: Tennessee and it sucked
2. did you stay up?: Yes
3. what was your new year wish?: I doubt i had one and if i did i dont remember it
4. how many boyfriends/girlfriends? Two
5. broke up?: One
6. have any crushes?: One
7. care to mention names?: Christen
8. new friends?: Yeah but i dont feel like typing a lot
9. had to say goodbye?: Not really, i lost some but it was more of a fuck you dont ever come near me again kinda thing
10. missed anyone?: JR
11. win anything?: Not that i can recall
12. best place you went to?: Almost all of the U.S.
13. worst place you went to?: Oklahoma, i did not go there this year but i feel that no one should ever go there
14. happiest moment?: Meeting Christen, our record coming out, signing with 1917, seeing Crowbar, seeing Danzig play Misfits songs ( yeah i know thats way more than a moment but oh well)
15. how was your birthday?: It was cool i saw Breather Resist and came home to my room filled with balloons and presents
16. best present?: Three balloons with 6's on them hahahah

MEMORIES FROM EACH MONTH:
january: First Ruiner tour with The Spark
february: Saw Planes Mistaken For Stars with Kyle on valentines day, he was my valentine, Crowbar
march: Going to see J. lo, going to get stitches, tour with No Idols, Danzig, George Jones for my moms birthday
april: Had stitches in my face
may: NIN, Suicide File, hung out with Shannon, met Christen
june: Tour with Day Of The Dead
july: Me and Shannon played in the mud and played baseball with food with jason, started dating Christen
august: I guess i was drunk
september: Because i cant think of anything
october: Tour with Dead Hearts and Jason came with us which ruled
november: Throw up tofurky on Thanksgiving and than went and saw Harry Potter
december: Leak Leak Leak Leak Leak Leak

Car crashes and abortion

2005-11-18T16:22:01Z

i have been thinking about it, and for Christmas this year i want a morphine drip and an inflatable dragon the shoots fire at jesus.

I walk on water every chance I get

2005-11-15T01:46:15Z

- Taking the batteries out of toys at the daycare makes me happy; the kids seem to get bummed
- My new hobby is buying clothes wearing them once or twice and than taking them back (I also bought a gameboy on tour and played it for a 2 hour van ride and then found a mall and got my money back)
- Bars and alcohol steal friends
- I got a 1981 Les Paul today, its pretty sweet

Oh what a lovely tea party

2005-09-02T18:16:24Z

So i am sponsored by Krank now, so i have a new amp. I brought a 1980 Les Paul Firebrand so i have a new guitar. I got my chest piece colored in so my chest hurts.

Nerds are the best candy ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-07-19T02:36:20Z

Life lesson of the day:

When you go to buy new pants, and you plan to try them on, make sure you are wearing underwear.

jason has my heart

2005-07-11T21:07:26Z

I had an away message up last night, and when i came back to my computer at like 2 in the morning jason had said this to me.

Call Me Jason X: remember when we were like 8, and were at some movie
Call Me Jason X: and that asian lady was hitting you because you talked to me
Call Me Jason X: and your mom was going to fight her hahaha

HAHAHAHAH so random. I love you jason!

i hate you all more than you will ever know

2005-06-14T13:55:47Z

Tour is awesome; learning to praise Satan in a different language is even better.

VIVA SATANAS!!!

In the van

2005-05-30T16:34:45Z

xsisypheanx: there will be no cryass in the van
xsisypheanx: lol
xsisypheanx: ok... maybe a little
xsisypheanx: but only when its late
xsisypheanx: and day of the dead aren’t there hahah
DeaDFi5H: HA HA
DeaDFi5H: very true
xsisypheanx: john knows we are cryasses so he can hear
DeaDFi5H: ha ha he knows the reality that we arent the bad ass motha fuckers everyone else thinks we are

it's true, it's true

2005-05-19T21:17:43Z

"If you love something set if free"
Just don't be surprised if it comes back with herpes....

yeah.....wow

2005-05-04T04:51:25Z

"holy shit, who fucking cares"

I enjoy lemonade

2005-05-02T05:24:41Z

I thought this was really funny:

Danny: my life is like a bad sitcom
Rachel: im glad I got killed off early in the series

You won't forget my lips

2005-04-29T03:35:31Z

Between seeing origin last night and minus the bear tonight, I think im just going to give up on playing guitar

7" FROM THE BAND WHITE ZOMBIE ON PSYCHOHOLIC RECORDS.

TRACK LISTING IS:

A. SUPER CHARGERGER HEAVEN

B. WHERE THE SIDEWALK ENDS, THE BUG PARADE BEGINS

THIS IS ON GREEN VINYL

I just won this on eBay for 6 cents, you can be jealous now

Get aids

2005-04-21T12:27:51Z

I would like to take this time to say fuck the following things:

Fuck Lipton green ice tea with citrus
Fuck milk chocolate peanut chews
Fuck the singer of carry on for breaking edge
Fuck the girls of Dundalk that don’t wear enough clothes
Fuck not having health insurance
Fuck alcohol
Fuck people that force little kids to pray
Fuck aqua man
Fuck people who smile and shake my hand but then say they are going to knock my teeth out of my head when im not around
Fuck credit cards
Fuck metal core
Fuck people who like creed
Fuck the people who still haven’t sent me my dimebag tribute bracelet

xpaperskinx @ 2005-04-16T13:08:00

2005-04-16T17:10:35Z

on tuesday i got some more work done on my arm, and then mike let me tattoo myslef hahahah

Hate your enemy with a whole heart

2005-04-06T15:28:24Z

I don't want to go to work today I just want to listen to Madonna and dance around

I can feel the soil falling over my head

2005-03-31T23:24:00Z

So in eleven days I will be twenty two. A lot has changed since last year. Some ridicules shit has happened to me this year, most of it was pretty funny though. About this time last year I had a birthday party with like eighty people there. I have since lost some of those friends for some really stupid reasons, and I have lost some for some really valid reasons. Some people most likely hate me, and I hate some people that I didn’t last year. I have just not stayed in connect with a lot of people. Some I wish I had. Some times it just feels as I get older I can feel things start to fall apart and fade away, which sucks. Some of it has been my fault; some was out of my control. So thanks to everyone that has listened to me bitch about all the stupid shit I got myself into. I don’t know where this is going and im sure I could ramble on forever, but ill stop here. I will be surprised if people read this far, because I never read peoples entry’s that are this long hahahah.

"I'd like to deny the inevitable and experience the impossible"

Against all gods

2005-03-27T18:55:13Z

Early this morning the Easter bunny got me a facial laceration, 3 hours of bleeding, 4 needles in my face, and four stitches in my face, tetanus (Spelling?) shot and a whole lot of arguing. What did you guys get?

I avoid reality like a champ.

2005-03-23T16:07:09Z

Today I got home to a note that said that my parents bought the house they wanted so I have to start packing my stuff up.

the birds the birds!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-21T18:41:36Z

this morning i woke up and this is what i saw when i looked at my car. who the fuck throws bread on peoples cars hahahahah. i bet it was the same thing that took my cross. maybe i pissed off some birds?

so here is a story.....

2005-03-16T16:46:45Z

When my aunt died, I was in second grade. I was given a cross that was hers. Since I don’t believe in fairy tales, but I did love my aunt I kept it. I have had it setting in my window, upside down of course, for many a year now. One day last week I noticed it was missing, so today I asked my mom why she took it, being that she is the only person that would go in my room and take it I assumed it was her. She said that she didn’t know what I was talking about, and that she didn’t take it. So I am left puzzled as to wear it is. Was it carried away by the spiders that live above my window? Did someone see it and get mad I had it upside down and take it? Did it ascend to heaven on a chariot made of chocolate and feathers? And like all stories in my life this one is also not going to really have an ending and will leave me wondering what happened for years to come.

take me away from everything

2005-03-01T14:16:00Z

last night i made a snow devil, it was cute